Happiness !

What could it be?

Albert Camus said -“You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.”

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When you realise mistake is yours 🙃

Life sucks it really does !

I am an average person and I had many expectations I wanted to be loved by everyone(which is worst wish ) I was expecting so much that I couldn’t find love from people around me .

I was treated everyone bad just because they failed to fulfill my expectations .

I cried a lot. I started finding mistakes in myself I started being angry ,anxious , felt alone i mean it I cried a lot .

I would have still been the same but one thing changed everything .

A person I wanted the most ,I love the most ,I need the most was going to leave me alone …

That fear that damn fear of losing her that changed me .I want that person and I will do whatever it takes .

I will do anything for her so today is my first day …

Bye expectations 🙃

Just a fight😣

I am being totally rude !

I used to love a girl (she was my best friend. ya ya it’s that same sad story) I finally got caurage to speak up and propose her

That’s too forward let me start from beginning :

We were really nice friends and after a period of time I got a feeling of love towards her and that bloody one sided love came in my life .

Worst thing about one sided love is u just can’t expect anything other Ur partner , you just love her . Till it’s one sided there is nothing wrong in not expecting from Ur partner but once ur partner accepts Ur love .. real bad things comes in story.

So I had feelings for her I proposed she rejected . Ya that’s all (by the way I cried that whole night ..)

I was shameless and proposed again .(still it was no)

Hopes were always there so I kept on trying and finally it was yes for me

Now

We were having our degree course in different brenchs but at same area so she used to share every thing and we were our only friend

But after a period of time (near about a year) things started changing ..

I started expecting from her ..

I wanted her love

I want her to love me soo badly cause I was loving her like an idiot I was still sharing everything. But things change so she had her own friends own and it was waste of time to share things with me

I felt lonier I felt alone and that too at that point of time where I needed her the most cause I was expecting her love and wanted to be loved

Life sucks from then and we are still fighting and love has lost somewhere in between

What should I do !?

Or should I leave it cause it’s just a fight…

Started reading new book

Subtle art of not giving a fuck!

Best lines :

1.Ironically, the fixation on the positive—on what’s better, what’s superior—only serves to remind us over and over again of what we are not, of what we lack, of what we should have been but failed to be. After all, no truly happy person feels the need to stand in front of a mirror and recite that she’s happy. She just is.

2.the problem is that giving too many fucks is bad for your mental health. It causes you to become overly attached to the superficial and fake, to dedicate your life to chasing a mirage of happiness and satisfaction. The key to a good life is not giving a fuck about more; it’s giving a fuck about less, giving a fuck about only what is true and immediate and important.

Just enjoy Ur life and don’t give a fuck about anything.

May be I am wrong!

Summer holidays have started

My journey towards better me has begun!

Let me introduce my self :

I am an possesive idiot , thinks on not important things and loves dreaming myself in bad situation ( negative thinker) Not so healthy , average in studies .

I am a simple person enjoy my own company ( cause I have no good friends )😅.I am here to improve myself and being my own journey towards happiness .

I hope who ever is reading this wish me luck cause it’s going to be hardest journey of my life still hopes are always there…